It has been a year since I blogged on this site, and wow, many things have changed.
I am now in a new class, with new friends and new teachers. Everything has changed since last year.
And can you believe it? I have already completed my End-Of-Year Assessments! (which means I am free for the rest of the year!)
I had experienced many things ever since the start of the year. I had quite a number of friendship problems, constantly feeling left out and unwanted, even by my closest friends. All my close friends from last year have found new close friends in their respective classes, but even till now, I have yet to find one. The people that I thought I was really close to at the beginning of the year, turned out otherwise at the very end. I have a completely different set of friends now, but I feel happier, and I am still on good terms with everyone in my class, so all is rather well.
As I had mentioned previously, throughout the year, I had experienced many conflicting thoughts and feelings about my friendships with people. When all my friends found new close friends, I had felt so abandoned. "I thought we were close enough," Was what I had thought then. I feared that them finding new friends would subsequently result in us severing our friendship, and I had felt so devastated at that thought. I didn't want that to happen. Even my best friend was also distancing herself from me, having other friends to go to. The people whom I used to know the best, were now people whom I could only vaguely recognise and understand. It was very upsetting.
However, I had realised that this was all part of life. People come and go. Nothing is indispensable, nothing stays constant. As the saying goes, "The only constant is change." These things might hurt, but I would learn to get over it and continue on with life. All that I need to do is to cherish all the memories that my friends and I have had together.
Besides, I realised that though they have found new friends, and talked less to me, that did not mean that we are not close anymore. Sure, I spend less time with them now, but we can still connect with each other whenever we meet up. The friendship may be slightly different now, but the essence of it still remains the same.
Sure, I still often find myself doubting my self-worth, and thinking whether my close friends don't think of me as a close friend anymore. I still often find myself upset over the fact that things have changed, and I am unable to attain the friendships with them that I used to have. But at the end of the day, I still have them with me, and they still listen and help me, so I should at least give them my trust that they are willing to stay by my side.
I do not know what may happen in the future. For all I know, we might end up severing our friendship due to inconsolable reasons, and turn from friends to foes. But if that time ever comes, albeit being sad, I will just reminiscence about our times spent together as close friends. Right now, I will just live life as it is, and enjoy their company.
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Album of the Week:
GOT7 - Flight Log: Turbulence
Genre: Dance, Trap, Hip-hop, R&B
Language: Korean
Many good albums have been released since last August, but I thought that I should start from the most recent album, then work backwards.
So, introducing a GOT7 album! I think I have never mentioned it previously, but GOT7 was a Korean-pop boy group that I had gotten into since late 2014. Their songs were not that fantastic previously, but their current songs are really catchy and groovy, so I thought that it was a good album to be recommended :)
Flight Log: Turbulence is a "sequel" album to their previous mini album, Flight Log: Departure. This album is a full-length album, comprising of 13 songs, 11 songs which the members of the group have helped compose/write the lyrics. Most of their songs have a very strong bass and is full of edm components, so it really allows you to groove along with the song :)
My favourites are Boom x3, Prove It, Hey and My Home.
This album really suits my music taste, and I hope you like it too!
(I realised that I have not recommended a Korean Hip-Hop album for a really long time, so I hope to do so soon!)
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Picture of the Week:
(sorry for the drop in quality of the pictures as I started to pay less attention to taking quality photos :/)
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On A Lighter Note:
I! Am! Back!! After an entire year (and two months) :D
As I had mentioned, many things had happened. After my previous blog post, my end-of-year assessments came. However, after they ended, I did not have any motivation to update this blog anymore. This year, I had so many projects and assessments, and I was elected for two leadership roles in my school, so my life was very hectic and I did not have the time and energy to update this blog (I procrastinated a lot too). I had considered leaving it for good, but I decided to come back again :)
Updates will be very infrequent, but I will definitely try to continue updating my blog from time to time. I am not sure whether the next blog post will come a year later, but I hope to update it before then :)
Also, thank you for the 984 views! Wow the number of page views have tripled since last year and I am so grateful to everyone reading my blog even though I had stopped updating it :)
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"Live life, love life."
Hope to see you guys in the near future! (I have changed my ending statement haha)
~Baethxr
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