"In the End We Only Regret the Chances We Didn't Take"

Let's just say that I have quite a lot of regrets.

I regret procrastinating when I have around 8 projects to finish at the same time. I regret declining the offer to go out with my friend even when I had nothing to do, and they all had fun without me. I regret not studying hard enough to get good results. I regret not jumping into that river, and swim freely without any care in the world. 

Why didn't I do all of those things? Why do I lack the self control, but I have too much self-consciousness? 

Why am I unable to stop myself from reading useless junk, or watching useless clips that will have no impact on my life, and instead do stuff that will actually impact my life, like my graded assignments and projects, or practising for my upcoming piano examination? 

Why am I unable to let go of myself for a while, and wear whatever revealing crop top I want, or do whatever crazy thing that my friend asks me to do?

Why?

Living in the 21st century means that your life will be very hectic, busy, and stressful. With this lifestyle, comes the fact that we may need to let some (very enticing) opportunities slip out of our grasps. Or, we may just willingly let them slip out. 

I am the latter. 

Whenever an opportunity comes, I always tell myself, "I will always be able to do this another time." Which may be true, or not. Often, I find myself regretting that choice. 

"What if it doesn't ever come again?"

However, people say that we need to learn how to let go of our regrets, and continue living our life to the fullest. Which I agree. In order not to prevent ourselves from regretting, we need to seize all chances that we can possibly take. Try and do everything that you can possibly do, so that you will never ever feel regret because of you letting that chance slip away. I guess, you would also be able to live a happier life if you do that. At least you know that you have tried to do almost every single thing that you can do.

Therefore, live life to the fullest and have no regrets! :)

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Album of the Week: 

2PM - No. 5

Genre: R&B, Franky, Electronic Sound

Language: Korean

I don't usually listen to 2PM's songs, but I came across this album which was released in June and I really liked it! 

This is the 5th album that 2PM has produced (hence "No.5"), and the album has 12 songs in it! Their style is a bit different from usual Korean-pop songs, and most of their songs (if not all) are self-composed by the group members themselves!! 

You may not be used to such beats and tunes at first, but they slowly start growing on you as they are really unique and fresh :) My favourite songs are "Our House", "환각" and "너만의 남자". 

I guess the songs are relatively upbeat(?), but all I can say is that their songs are really unique and different :)

If you're interested, go listen to it!!

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On A Lighter Note:

It seems that I can never keep to my promises D: (I am such a horrible person please forgive me)

It has been around TWO months since I last blogged!! I know I said that I would try to blog weekly but it could not happen. Holidays have ended at least a months ago. However, as like what I had said above, I did have around 8 to 9 projects to complete within last month and this month :( I have so much work that I have been sleeping so late for the past few weeks (I am really tired now gosh). Fortunately, half of my projects are completed. 

On another note, tomorrow marks the start of the National Day holidays! I will be having a four-day holiday so I can finally wake up late and have more time to complete my work (if I do not procrastinate). 

As usual, I will probably post a blog 12938471209 weeks later so I hope that you would be patient!

Anyhow, I will not make any more promises as to when I will blog again (I have learnt my lesson) so I hope you will support and wait for me!! :)

Also, thank you for the 372 page views!! It has only been 5 months since I started (and I only posted 7 blogs including this one) and there are already so many people reading this! You have no idea how grateful I am to all of you guys :')

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"Love life. Live life."

Hope to see you guys next week! (Note: Hope)

~Baethxr

p.s. I posted this on a Thursday instead of a Friday as I was afraid that I would not post this week if I just waited until tomorrow, so I hope you enjoyed the not-so-early-but-early update :)

"Inhale Confidence. Exhale Doubt."

I had a 2 hour talk with my mom.

She had recently attended a leadership course, so my mom decided to share about the things that she had learnt with me, as I am also a student leader in my school. 

After talking to her, I realised that I actually have little self-confidence.

Why don't I have self confidence? Is it because I had been judged too many times before? Is it because I care too much about how others view me? Why do I even care so much in the first place? Why can’t I just ignore them and live life as how I want to, and be more confident of myself? I have so many questions, yet they will be left unanswered. 

I don't understand how some people are able to be so vocal and outspoken. I don't understand how they are able to speak out without fear or embarrassment. I don't understand how they are able to be so calm and collected when they speak to an audience. How do people do their valedictory speeches? Aren't they afraid that they may embarrass themselves horribly? 

How are people able to wear unconventional clothing confidently? How do they wear crop tops and show of their stomach without shame, or embarrassment? How do they wear eye-catching clothes without feeling like they are being judged 24/7? I hate wearing clothes that attract attention to myself. The feeling of being watched, being judged, is too much for me to handle. I would badly wish for the ground to swallow me up whole so that no one will see me anymore.

Don’t you find it ironic that I’m selected to be a leader when I don’t even have self-confidence? I tremble and stutter when talking to a huge crowd, and I forget what I want to say. I don't feel confident about my body, or even myself. I am very pessimistic, and I always think of the worst possibilities that can ever happen in any situation. I care too much about other's opinions, but I don't like being judged. I give up too easily, maybe not physically, but mentally, I would have given up accomplishing that task. I am too lazy, too irresponsible, too distracted by who-knows-what, to do anything, let alone lead others.

I may have gone through months of training to become a leader, but I don’t know whether I’m ready to become one. I still have so much that i am lacking in. A leader holds so much responsibility, and needs so much confidence to achieve that, but am i confident enough to be able to direct a group of people? Am i confident enough to bring across my ideas and points to a huge group of people whom i don’t even know? Am i confident enough to be selfless and help others our when they need my help?

Am i confident enough to do the right thing when i see something wrong?

What if I fail as a leader? What if I screw up? What am I going to do? Will they forgive me?

I honestly don’t know.

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I really hope that I can get rid of this huge insecurity of mine, so that I can live life more happily. I am honestly trying to be more brave, doing things that I normally do not do to get out of my comfort zone and overcoming my fear. 

I hope everyone is also trying to overcome their own fears! You cannot hide from your fears forever. We need to try and embrace it, then overcome it. Let's try our best!! I will cheer on for you :)

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Album of the Week:

Super Junior - This is Love

Genre: Dance Pop

I know, I have been introducing a lot of Super Junior albums but that just shows how good their songs are :D

This album is actually a repackage album of their 7th full album, Mamacita. (A full album is a album consisting of around 10-15 songs.) This album had 3 more songs added along with the songs from their Mamacita album, therefore with a total of 13 songs. Like most of their albums, most songs in the album are rather upbeat, but there are still a few slow songs here and there, and they are really catchy! I personally like This Is Love, Hit Me Up, Shirt and Let's Dance from the album. 

Do listen to it if you wish to!

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On A Lighter Note:

One week of holidays have already passed! *gasp* Time passes so quickly :(

I thought I would have a break from everything during this one-month break, but I was wrong. I still have so much school related and personal things to do!! Therefore, I will not be as free as I had thought I would be :(( But I will still try to keep to the promise of blogging weekly for this month!!

I will be overseas next week, so I will try to blog earlier in the week :)

Thanks for the 240 page views!

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"Love life. Live life."

Hope to see you guys next week!

~Baethxr

"Don't Forget Who You Are"

So today, I was looking at myself in the mirror. Just looking at myself in general. 

But I was suddenly unable to identify who that was in the mirror, staring back at me.

Was that really me?

Why couldn't I recognise my face, my body, everything?

I had a few friends whom I used to talk to pretty frequently in the past. However, when we see each other now, they hardly acknowledge me anymore. 

Was this really the friend that I had talked to, and laughed with a few months ago?

What happened? What changed?

Are we so influenced by other people, that we become someone whom we can't even recognise anymore? Are we so pressured by other people, that we change into someone that we do not want to become? What happened to who we originally were? What happened to our unique personalities, and our quirks?

Why do we change who we are just because of someone else?

We are all different. We have our own likes and dislikes, strengths and weaknesses. We have varying personalities, attitudes and moral values. We have our own perspectives and opinions. Why do we need to change them? Why do we need to please other people? 

We should do whatever we want, however we want.

People's criticism can be taken into account, but we should not change ourselves completely just because of these criticisms. We shouldn't stop doing something we like just because of them, or take up new hobbies or habits just because others think it is cool.

People are constantly pressured by others, therefore turning into someone that they barely recognise anymore. Having witnessed it myself before, I feel really frustrated when I see this happening. These people were originally very caring and fun to be with, and they would have definitely made lots of friends. Why would they want to turn into someone whom people dislike, and can't tolerate?

Of course, I am not saying that I am a completely perfect person who does not get influenced by other people as well. I, of course, have also changed in personality due to peer pressure before. However, we should be aware of ourselves, and know when we start becoming someone whom we do not wish to be. Luckily, I had stopped myself before I completely changed, and i am glad of that.

Some people also change due to the change in their lifestyles. Being a busy person means that they would never have enough time to do whatever they wish to do. Over time, they start to lose the real meaning of living. They would not recognise the person that they have become, and may even forget the things that they had loved to do previously.

Why give these things up? The things that we enjoyed and loved doing? These things makes us who we are, we should not take them away from us.

We need to remember who we used to be. What we were like, what we used to like, and what made us happy. We need to know what defined us as ourselves. We should not become someone that we are unwilling to be, or a stereotypical person who would be thought as "cool" or "rich", etc. 

Be who you are! Do what you want! Life is so much more meaningful when accomplishing things that we love to do, so we should always do them. Don't bother about what other people say, or what negative things that have been said about you. They do not affect you at all! Be yourself: Be unique, be quirky, be lovely.

Don't ever forget who you are! 

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Album of the Week:

Kyuhyun (Super Junior) - At Gwanghwamun

Genre: Korean Ballad

Today I will introduce another album from a Super Junior member. The album was released last year, but I had only recently decided to go check it out. 

This album consists of 7 songs, and all the songs are really soothing to the ear. If you are feeling down, this is probably an album to listen to :) Most of the songs are sad songs with the exception of "Flying, Deep in the Night", which is a slightly more upbeat song.

I like the song "At Gwanghwamun" best as I feel that this song really evokes a lot of emotions out of me and go listen to this album if you want to! :D

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On a Lighter Note:

I'm sorry that I did not update for the PAST MONTH!! (it has been a long time i know). I have been really (like, reeeeally) busy with my exams and everything and school has been so stressful but the holidays have finally arrived (yay!) and I should be able to blog weekly for the next month :) 

Thanks for the 203 page views! :D

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"Love life. Live life."

Hope to see you guys next week! 

~Baethxr

"Do What Makes You Happy, And Be Done With All The Rest"

So I just had my exams yesterday, and would be having more next Wednesday.

I was extremely stressed for the past few days, and I would definitely continue being stressed for the next few days until my exams are completely over. I have been so stressed that I kept crying every day. 

School was really tough for me and for the first time in in my years of studying, I felt so unprepared for my papers. I was so worried and afraid that I could not do well. 

Although my papers were slightly difficult and challenging for me, at least I had tried my best, and attempted the papers to the best of my ability. Now, I am left with three more papers, so wish me luck!!

As I had been feeling down for the past few days, I felt so happy today when I could go for my first ever K-pop concert, Super Junior's Super Show 6!! It was really exciting and surreal for me, as it was my first time meeting celebrities in real life, and it was definitely a truly amazing experience for me. It also brought me so much happiness, and I felt really rejuvenated after the concert :) 

I am glad that my parents granted my wish and bought the tickets to this concert as my birthday present :)

I hope that with this concert, I will be able to draw out energy to continue persevering and studying for my last few papers :D 

Diverting from the topic of this blog, I also wanted to talk about the friendship of this Korean group. 

One of the reasons why I like them so much is because I feel that all of them are really close and their friendships are so precious and real. I constantly feel envious of their friendship as they are always joking and playing around with one another, yet they still connect with each other on a deeper level, and always supporting and helping each other whenever they need help.

Can you believe it if I told you that they have all been friends for 10 years?

I would definitely hope to have a friendship like theirs and I hope everyone would also have such a great and precious friendship like this too!

So in a nutshell, I think it is best if we do things that we like constantly to give us positive energy and strength to persevere through the tough times in our life. I would definitely try to take time off to do whatever that I like to do, and I hope you will be able to find time to partake in all of your hobbies too! 

Cherish all the wonderful times that you had and anticipate the better ones that are coming :)

p.s. I was not supposed to blog this week but I was feeling too happy from the concert and badly needed to talk about it, hence the blog post :)
p.p.s. my holidays are coming in a month and I can't wait for them!! :D

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Album of the Week:

Primary - Primary and the Messengers LP 

Genre: Korean Hip-hop

I have decided to introduce a Hip-hop album instead of a pop album today :) 

After snooping around on Youtube for a while, I came across this album and it is really good! This album consists of 19 songs, including an Interlude and an Outro, and the songs are really catchy. The album is also arranged really nicely and the beats are sick :D 

My favourites are 
멀어 (ft. Beenzino)
LOVE (ft. Bumkey, Paloalto) 
씨스루 (ft. Zion.T, Gaeko of Dynamic Duo) 
입장정리 (ft. Choiza of Dynamic Duo, Simon D of Supreme Team) 
2주일 (ft. Rhythm Power) 
축하해 (ft. Dynamic Duo, Jay Park) 
(Korean titles because it is Korean hiphop and I usually introduce Korean albums)

This is the first hiphop album that I listened to, but I must say that I am really impressed with it and you guys should check it out if you wish to! It definitely does not disappoint :)

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Hope to see you guys next week!

~Baethxr

"Do Not Give Up. The Beginning Is Always the Hardest"

Just last week, my CCA (basically my school's dance team) had participated in a International Dance competition. We performed a contemporary piece. The piece was about how people looked perfectly fine, and how it seems that their lives are perfect. However, what we don't actually know is the amount of hardships, struggles and problems that they have to face daily, and how they are slowly dying on the inside, unable to cope with everything anymore. (We actually got Distinction yay)

Sadly, like this piece, I have not been feeling good. 

Emotionally.

I am not depressed, and I do laugh every day. However, I feel really stressed out with school and life in general (this explains my one week absence sorry!). I am not doing well in my academics, nor am I doing well in any other aspect of my life this year. Everything is going downhill, and I feel exhausted. No matter how much hard work I put in, things just don't work out for me. 

Why?

Why do we have so many problems? So many hardships? 

They say that all these things make you stronger. 

But I feel that there are too many of such things in such a short span of time. To the point where I might just crumble one day. I am hardly getting any rest, and I am plain exhausted. Physically and mentally. 

However, on a side note, I am really grateful to my friends. They had really helped me keep my mind off these things for a while, and I know that they will definitely be with me throughout this difficult time of mine and I am really grateful for all of them :) 

I really do believe that there's a light at the end of the tunnel and things will definitely get better for me soon <3 

To everyone else who might be experiencing the same thing as me, be it in academics, work or just life in general, do cheer up and forge ahead!! It may be tough (because I really feel so), but I am sure that things will get resolved eventually and naturally, so don't ever give up! 

Remember to smile! :)

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Album of the Week:

EXO - Exodus 

Genre: K-pop, R&B, Hip Hop, Ballad, Dance

So this album consists of 10 songs, and was recently released (one month ago is considered recent right) and I got really addicted to it after looping the album a few times :D The songs are really catchy and there are a variety of songs, from upbeat and fast-paced songs to slow and soothing songs. I personally like the songs Call Me Baby, Transformer, My Answer, Playboy and Beautiful (half of the album whoops). All those songs are completely different in genres but they are all really nice the more you listen to them :)

There is also a Chinese version of this album (this particular group, EXO, releases both Korean and Chinese versions of their songs) so go check them out if you wish to!

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Hope to see you guys next week!
ps. I actually do have exams next week so maybe not sigh 
pps. Thanks for the 101 views! :D

~Baethxr

"Follow Your Dreams And Don't Let Anyone Stop You"

That's what they all say.

But did they actually do that?

Are we even able to do that? 

Follow our dreams and do whatever we wish to do?

What if we just wanted to travel the world? Going to many different countries consecutively? Do we need to get a job and earn a huge sum of money just to afford the cost of travelling to many different countries, and experiencing different lifestyles? Yet, when we finally earned enough money to sustain the travel fees, our hair has already turned grey, our forehead covered in wrinkles, bodies too weak to travel the world? Hadn't that effort of following your dreams gone to waste?

People could disagree with me, saying that not all effort would still result in failure. However, I feel that sometimes, life and the society is not allowing us to fully attain whatever that we wish for.

Last week, I had just finished a few examination papers for schools, with more coming up in a few weeks. Although I am still very young, and I have much to learn and experience, I am starting to get tired of school, and all the work that I have to go through. I am getting so many projects and assignments with no breather in between, and I feel very suffocated. School is preventing me from doing whatever that I like, and whatever that I wish to do. Every day, I come home from school at 7 in the evening, and I would be too exhausted at night to do anything. During the weekends, the only thing that I do is homework. Homework, and more homework. I cannot go out and have fun with my friends, or even take a walk and get some fresh air. I am just cooped up at home, doing work. 

But isn't that how life is? The only way of possibly having a good life in the later years is to study and get good grades. After that, we are then able to get a good job with high pay. We would finally be able to live in comfort, and we would have enough money to get anything that we need in order to enjoy whatever activities that we like, or just sustaining ourselves after we retire to enjoy life.

I wished life could be more simple. Being able to live life as you wish to live it. Being able to do whatever you want without difficulty. 

But reality is not like this.

I am not trying to demoralise anyone or trying to tell anyone to not chase after their dreams. I myself am trying to chase after my own dreams, and I am also working hard at doing that. I am just wishing that things could have been different. Not needing to have so many restrictions while trying to attain your dreams and wishes.

I am trying to make my wish come true, and I hope that you are trying too!

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Album of the Week:

Super Junior D&E (Donghae & Eunhyuk) - The Beat Goes On 

Genre: Ballad, Dance

So I had recently decided to check out this album, and I have been listening to it these past few weeks :) There are 6 songs in this album, and the songs are mostly upbeat (with the exception for the last ballad song). 

It is not an album where you would instantly like the moment you first hear it, but it grows onto you as you listen to it more and more :)

Do listen to it if you wish to!

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See you next week!

~Baethxr

D-day

Hello fellow bloggers!

Today is a really special day for me, for it is my birthday! -cue confetti and birthday cake- But today is also special because I decided to start up a new blog (yes, I had an old one a few years ago, and let's just say it didn't turn out that great). I hope this blog will turn out nice :)

I have decided to create this blog to post about some things that run through my mind and nice (hopefully) pictures that I have taken :) I would probably post every Friday night as it is the last weekday of the week and I would have (hopefully) enough time to blog. 

Along with the pictures and the topic of the week, I would also share a music album that I had gotten hooked to for that week. As I listen to Korean music more than any other genre, I would be recommending Korean albums. Other than the K-pop songs that everyone has heard of, I would also be recommending Korean underground hip-hop albums that I listen to :)

However, I am still attending school and I am really busy, so I may not be able to blog weekly. I hope that I will have enough motivation to blog and I would really appreciate if you could support me! :) 

So here goes nothing.

D-day.